Tuesday, August 13, 2013

Normally I Don't.....

Like to talk too much about my personal life, but feel like this might be one of the many steps to take to move forward. I won't go into every little detail of my life because the internet is not the place to do it, plus it's not your burden to take on. What I can say is that things at home with my family and I changed, my world got turned upside down. The change has been a slow gradual (years) but the major change came within the last four weeks. My mother had a stroke and for the most part she is ok but has complications from it, we lost our 13 year old Dachshund Sampson due to health problems and age and then five days afterwards we had to say goodbye to our 7 year old Beagle Lenny due to cancer. Jump back to last December we also lost our other Dachshund Delilah (12yrs) due to heart problems. So now we have one dog Pedro the Chihuahua and oh how I love the little guy. There's a big hole in my heart and that hole goes way beyond what I just shared though. Even though things got/are bad I have hope, something that I didn't totally feel before. It might sound strange and of course I would like not to live through this mess, who would?, but all the grief and anger are eye openers and also to make some changes. It won't be easy because there are somethings that I have no control over and will have to carry them with me forever, but now I feel that I can kind of shut one door in my life and open another.





7 comments:

  1. Sometimes all the bad crap just seems to happen at once, doesn't it? Sorry you have been hit hard over the past few months but it's good that you realize what is and is not under your control. Keep your chin up and things will get better again in time!

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  2. Sending hugs.
    When I go through such huge loss i my life I take the smallest prompt and keep hope close even in the sadness I softly tell myself "This too shall pass" I know it isn"t much but it always helps somehow.
    Be well Friend.
    Willow

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  3. Oh, I'm so sorry to hear all this. This is a lot of grief to deal with all at the same time. I hope that things will get easier over time.

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  4. It is hard when so many things seem to happen right after another. I hope there is some solace in knowing that your friends in blogland care about you and wish only good things for you.

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  5. Thank you so much from the bottom of my heart for your kind words and concern. I really appreciate it and yes it does help.

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  6. Roxy! I am sorry I'm late coming around to your blog! My friend, my heart goes out to you! You know if you need me, I am here for you! Sending you big hugs and much love!!!

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  7. I am so very sorry for your loss. You will remember what has transpired but it will change. Over 15 years I lost seven family members and a two wonderful companions. Like I said... You will remember the pain but it will change.

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